Bruh.

Do you even still read this? Look:  Life gets so much easier when you stop caring about what other people think. We’re almost 30, yo. Bigger things man, bigger things. This image is unrelated unless I can think of an awesome coffee analogy for you. Stay Strong and emit positive energy? Yeah that.

Murals of La Jolla

MUR1

Sexy Cash, 2015 – Mark Bradford

MUR2

Man, Myth & Magic, 2017 – Steven Hull

MUR3

One Pointed Attention, 2014 – Kelsey Brookes

MUR4

Brain/Cloud (With Seascape and  Palm Tree), 2011 – John Baldessari

MUR5

Opening, 2014  – William Wegman

MUR7

Blah, Blah, Blah, 2015 – Mel Bochner

MUR8

at sea, 2012 – Ann Hamilton

MUR9

Expecting to Fly (For the Zeroes), 2013 – Fred Tomaselli

MUR10

Favorite Color, 2010 – Roy McMakin

Nine finds (10th not pictured) out of Sixteen murals scattered  around downtown La Jolla for the sole purpose of demonstrating how commissioning artists to create works for public spaces brings energy and vitality to a community. Fortunate that an overcast rolled in on this heatwave afternoon– cooling down this stroll and creating a perfect soft box for concealing the hard shadows that come with bright, midday lighting.  Happy that I found Baldessari, Wegman, and Brookes’ pieces. Still need to find Terry Allen’s Playing La Jolla (for all it’s worth).

Pannikin Coffee & Tea [ 7467 Girard Ave ]

This space basically looks like someone dug up an old attic and was like “yo, these gadgets & gizmos aplenty would look great in a coffee shop–I should open up my own coffee shop.”

The Butterfly Effect

I always liked the idea of signs.

There was just something comforting in universal messages,  a cosmic reminder that life is greater than the monotony of daily routines and occasional speed bumps that make us feel alive, a circadian rhythm operating like clockwork and flights to dreamland scheduled before 12AM with seldom delays.

These particular “signs” happened within the past year.

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The first image was taken in a butterfly garden at the Fair. The  text placement,  depth of field and angles composed an eerily personal message addressed to myself, a simple note to keep on dreaming. 

The second image was originally a .gif of a butterfly that landed on my hands a few times, and interestingly  hovered around me in the same spot where Chibi passed. The only other time this phenomenon occurred was back in Japan, when a butterfly landed and attached itself onto my dad’s shoulder, a few days after my grandpa passed away.  The crazy cool thing is that this particular species is called a Mourning Cloak, aptly named for its markings that resemble the traditional cloak that an individual wore when he/she was “in mourning.”

I was barely 20 when that awful afternoon set off a chain of events that continuously begged me to question the existence of a higher power, an interrogative (and extremely selfish) mental tug-o-war of “why me” and “life’s not fair.”  Nine years later, I’ve acknowledged that  I wouldn’t be in this position, if it wasn’t for the past (especially that day) and I’m surprisingly grateful for that.

Also super important: nobody owes you anything.

If there’s one sign I want to truly believe in, it’s that butterflies symbolize transformation, and these minor interactions represented the cumulative metamorphosis of my twenties, reminding me that the pain is gone, the scars have healed, and those relentless dreams have finally come to fruition. Hashtag blessed.